Silence says too much

God took me on a journey the other day, it was Tuesday evening... and I was at Zoe, and Kyle Walling spoke on the face of God that is "Jehovah Shalom" "God of peace".... he then commanded us to be in complete silence and find a place where you were completely at peace... and meet God there...

He told us a quote by a guy with the last name "Buckner" it went something like "None of us are really good at silence... it says too much"

And in my silent moment with God.. everything was said.. everything I needed to surface, everything I needed to heal from.. it was all there.. when I close my eyes and dove in deep with the Lord...

"please say honestly you won't give up on me, and I shall believe" -Sheryl Crow ( I shall believe)

He took me on this journey through a tunnel he beginning of the tunnel was littered in happy memories that have occurred as of recent and as I gradually traveled deeper I hit memories that have pain linked to them that started off the same way... I traveled this way until I was completely broken... and that's where the Lord met me at the end... He showed me that I need to trust Him, and to heal from these things.. before I could have peace in every aspect of my life with Him... especially in my heart..

right now love shows another face.. right now love and fear with me are synonymous with each other.. it's exciting and terrifying but also in some ways foreign.. I am afraid to let myself be loved.. or to love... but also confident that I can overcome all of this sooner than I thought...

I can do anything in Him who gives me strength right? and I cannot love without Him...

I can't wait for Him to show me how there is no fear in love, but that true love casts out fear...

I can't wait to be healed in all the broken areas of my heart so that I can have the full capability to love!

Lord guide me, be the center of my life, give me truth, wisdom, understanding, and peace, and in all things let me glorify You. AMEN.